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16 Months Old

Dearest Son, Today you are sixteen months old. It is so hard for me to believe that this much time has passed since your birth; it has flown by so quickly! I think the best way to sum you up is by quoting what a grandmother at the playground said to me today: “You certainly… Continue reading 16 Months Old

adoptive parenting · awkward · being a mommy · church · Keith · life is messy · Little Man · real life friends

Emotional Thoughts from an Adoptive Mom

Two weeks ago we were interviewed (via phone) by a reporter for our local newspaper. They are doing an outdoor magazine this month and needed a camping/ outdoorsy family. My stepmom knows the editor, and voila, we are the family chosen. Well. Our camping life is (like everything else) divided into before-little-man and after-little-man. Now,… Continue reading Emotional Thoughts from an Adoptive Mom

being a mommy · mommy guilt · sick · transracial adoption

Mommy Guilt

Does anyone else experience this? I’ve been reading a great book about the best decisions a woman can make, and there was basically a whole chapter on guilt and how to discern if it’s from God or the enemy. But because I was up sick all night with the stomach flu (TMI, I know, sorry),… Continue reading Mommy Guilt

being a mommy · Keith · life is messy · parenting

I’m not cut out for this…

Single parenting, that is. When I was in college, and in the years thereafter, I was firmly convinced I could have it all: I could be a mother and a professional (theatre professional, in that time period of my life – a backstage or stage manager professional, not an actress). Being that there is a… Continue reading I’m not cut out for this…

being a mommy · Butler · fear · Little Man · scary stuff · school

Writer’s Block

I have writer’s block. I don’t know what to write. Somedays I think of grand ideas for posts… and then other days, I think, “Who wants to read about your boring daily life?”. So… tidbits. ***** Last week was rough, what with the death of a former student and all. She was only 12. I… Continue reading Writer’s Block

being a mommy · death · faith · fear · life is messy · school

I Can’t Even Imagine

A seventh grade girl from where I taught passed away yesterday. Suddenly. No warning. She was here. Then she was gone. And while we rejoice with the confidence that she is in Heaven with Jesus right now… I can’t even imagine what her mommy must feel. I went into school today. The school where I… Continue reading I Can’t Even Imagine

being a mommy · church · faith

Split Focus

One year ago, I was clinging to Jesus and my husband. We had just survived another Christmas, and I was tired of waiting. We were waiting for our son to be born and I alternately begged my husband for reassurance and spent hours curled up journaling, reading Scripture and crying to Jesus. I wrote last… Continue reading Split Focus

being a mommy · finances · firsts · infertility · Little Man

Mess

I haven’t been posting lately because, quite frankly, I’m a mess. But while I was thinking about this while driving today, I realize that either: A) I’m not alone, so posting about it might bring encouragement to me AND someone else or B) I am alone, but writing about it will make me feel better.… Continue reading Mess

being a mommy · parenting · real life friends

Perspectives in Parenthood

I love the NBC show “Parenthood.” I think it is incredibly well written, it is witty, all of the story lines are maintained so you always know what is going on. But what I really love about it is that it portrays a real family – a family with all sorts of issues. It tackles… Continue reading Perspectives in Parenthood

being a mommy · Little Man

Ten Months Old

Dear Son, You are ten months old – 44 weeks today. We brought you home 44 weeks ago tomorrow. I cannot believe how fast this time has gone by. Every day you do something new and exciting and amazing. You are the light of my life and I love you beyond words. At ten months… Continue reading Ten Months Old