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How Much do I Trust God?

But my son can never remove his skin, and he never made the choice to be born Black. He didn’t choose to have people at our recent Freedom Festival parade skip over him for the second year in a row and not give him candy while the white kids on either side of him got handfuls handed to them.

adoptive parenting · anger · being a mommy · family · fear · life is messy · racism · transracial adoption

Murder & White Privilege

Last week, a pregnant woman was shot in the head, and killed, in her own home, in Indianapolis. It occurred during a home invasion. She was certainly not the only murder victim in Indy last week, but if you judged by media reports and the way the police department press releases read, you’d think she’d… Continue reading Murder & White Privilege

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Struggling

I. am. exhausted. I had heard of “the sandwich generation,” and I vaguely realized that someday I would be a part of it. But I had no idea that I would become part of said generation in an instant, or how devastating the impact would be on me and my family. I had also heard… Continue reading Struggling

church · crisis · fear · Keith · life is messy · Little Man · my mom · real life friends · sandwich generation · scary stuff

My Mom

I wrote my last post just over a month ago. In it, I talked about how Little Man had a random meltdown about how his Grammy, my mom, was going to die. Two weeks later she had a massive brain hemorrhage. And although my mom did not die, thank God, our lives have all profoundly… Continue reading My Mom

death · family · fear · life is messy · parenting

Meltdown at 8pm

Last night Little Man was in a foul, foul mood. I scrapped the normal evening routine and we took to bed early for Bible stories and mega-cuddles. We read all about Moses, the Pharaoh and the ten plagues. He was intrigued by the blood, the frogs, the darkness. But it was the Passover that really… Continue reading Meltdown at 8pm

about me · educational choices · fear · homeschooling · parenting · running · theology

It’s February

It’s February. Historically, for me, this is the roughest month of the year. I struggle with the lack of sunshine, the frigid temperatures, and my anxiety is at its highest. I was hoping this year might be different, but it doesn’t seem to be 😦 But, I have some random things to say, so I… Continue reading It’s February

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7 QT: More Snow Edition

  — 1 — It’s going to snow here again today. Another measurable snow. Like 3-5″. This doesn’t include the fact that it has snowed almost every day this week. I would like to move somewhere warm, where it doesn’t snow 30+” before January is over every winter. Any ideas? Anyone want to trade houses… Continue reading 7 QT: More Snow Edition

about me · fear · life is messy · mommy guilt · sick

Mama’s a Germaphobe

Hello, my name is Rachel, and I am a germaphobe. And my germaphobia manifests itself in a very specific form: Emetophobia. Emetophobia: the fear of vomit and/or the fear of the act of vomiting. Specifically for me, it’s the fear of catching a stomach virus. “But Rachel,” I hear you saying, “nobody likes to vomit.”… Continue reading Mama’s a Germaphobe