Well, it’s been a month. And for me this month has all been about a lack of balance. (by the way… Nathanael [yes, that’s his name] broke the ” b” and “l” keys off of the computer – makes it difficult to type!).
Just when I think to myself, “Okay, I’ll get up at 6:30 tomorrow morning so I can pray, journal, shower, have a moment of peace…” Nathanael wakes up at 4. Or 4:30. Or 6. And refuses to go back to sleep. So I think, “Aha! I’ll do those things during nap time!” Except, if I’m up with him at 4. Or 4:30. Or 6. I need naptime, too, or I become one impatient mommy around 6pm when my husband still isn’t home and I’ve been single mommy all. the. live. long. day.
Will I ever figure it out? Sigh…. eventually, right? And then we’ll add something else into the mix.
Anyway… it’s been a crazy month. We went camping for five days. It sounded like a good idea at the time, but in reality it involves everything I do at home every day without the conveniences of home. We had fun, but I still haven’t had any time “off” since February. That was like 4 months ago, and that was because I had the flu.
I know mommies aren’t really supposed to get time “off,” right? Right? Am I alone in thinking I’d like a few hours alone with no responsibility?
Again… balance. I feel like if I had a few moments during each day where I could focus on God in a quiet setting, I’d at least feel less stressed. And I feel guilty if I blog because that’s time I could use to focus on God.
I’m sure I’ll figure it out.
But now I must go nap… he woke up with a fever at 4 am and is finally back asleep (at 10:30 am) and I’ll need all my strength this afternoon.
I promise to try and blog more often 🙂
But here’s a picture from last night, just to cheer you up (all both of you who are still reading this blog…)
He already had a slight fever. Oh, and the wii remote is apparently his new lovey 🙂 He wasn’t playing it – he was just holding it while he watched “Sesame Street.”