So our homestudy/parent prep process is FINISHED! Yes! And we have been officially approved as adoptive parents. We are so thrilled…and so freaking out at the same time.
Last night I couldn’t sleep because I realized I know exactly one lullaby: Rock-a-bye Baby. That’s it. What will I sing to my child? Black Crowes? Blue Oyster Cult? Jesus Loves Me? And seriously, that probably shouldn’t really be a concern, but it’s what kept me up last night.
I’m also freaking out because school starts in less than two weeks. While I’m excited to see some of my middle school kiddos, I’m fairly apathetic, because I’d rather be home preparing for baby. My best friend says I’m nesting, but isn’t it too early for that? I mean, we haven’t even been matched or anything…
I’m also wondering how to tell my middle school kiddos. We had a teacher go on maternity leave over spring break last year, but it was obvious she was having a baby. For me, not so obvious (as many of you understand). Any teachers out there have a creative idea for telling my middle schoolers?
Also, I couldn’t sleep the night before last because I realized that I think I know nothing about newborns. Nothing. Maybe every mother-to-be freaks out about this, but I’ve never been afraid of much in my life, and suddenly I’m petrified to be a mommy. I have the book “What to Expect the First Year,” but I feel like it’s not enough. Anyone out there have a favorite book about babies to recommend? I like to research :), and while I realize research isn’t the same as experience, it’d be good for me to do some reading…
And while I’m asking…anyone know of a good adoption positive pediatrician on the Southside of Indianapolis? Also something else freaking me out…choosing a doctor for my baby.
Thank God it’s the weekend – maybe some time with the hubby will make me more positive 🙂